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    It's Friday. It's starting to rain outside. It's been on and off all day. It's been a difficult week. Hell, it's been a difficult month. Xavier and I split at the end of March and I feel like I'm still processing the loss of a friendship. So many conflicting feelings of anger, grief, etc. But when it happens, it happens. Which has left me re-considering a lot about my life. Who am I? What do I want to do with my time on this Earth? What do I value? It feels like this is the big "reset" everyone talks about life throwing at you sometime in your 30th year. ("Saturn Return" for you astrology peeps out there.) I've tried to cope by going back to my old life. As we tend to do when we experience tectonic shifts like these. Obviously, the safety of what's worked for us in the past should work for us again in the future, right? But it's like going back to your ex after 5 years. The same things that didn't work for you back then, a...
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"Tenet" was fucking awful.

I saw Tenet last night. Or rather, I watched half of it while my homie struggled to stay awake. Not that I can blame him. That movie suuuuuuuuuuuucked. God damn . There's bad, and then there's... bad . This was really, really bad. Or, in more articulate terms- *Pretentious douchey film critic voice* Tenet lacks any cohesive narrative, uses the "Women in Refrigerators" trope along with a bunch of other lazy tropes to try and distract you from lazy storytelling, has a main character who is not only stupid and annoying, but a terrible person and actively dislikeable. Let's break it down, shall we? Old Skool Junkies · Your Shining - Old Skool Junkies Remix (FREE TRACK) So, first things first, I think it must be said how strange it is that this movie came out and it seems like most people I've talked to barely heard about it- and almost no one has seen it. In pre-plague times, a big, dramatic Christopher Nolan blockbuster featuring a star-studded cast like this...

I deserve better.

  I think it's interesting how cool always feels like it's presented as such a fleeting thing to us, when usually the reality is that by the time cool is presented to a mass audience, it's already been stripped of the fleeting things that made it cool in the first place.  Joplin, Missouri is a good example of this. Beautiful town with great food. But every building has this energy of "this used to be the coolest place in the world." You can't have that when people set out to make it the coolest place in the world. It just happens. By accident. And by the time it's gone, everyone's rushing to fill the void. But nothing will take its place. There's a million things like this. Usually, like in the case of the Strokes, they figure out that being the Coolest People on Earth TM is not worth the effort (being cool is, quite possibly, even in the best of economies, financially difficult to get off the ground, and infinitely more logistically difficult to s...

The end is in sight.

  You know, I'd say I'm in one of those transformative, butterfly-leaves-chrysalis stages of my life, but the older I get, the more I start to feel like my entire life is just kind of one big long transformative stage, broken up by smaller, less dramatic transformative stages. ("Less dramatic" being a relative term here, of course. Your "less dramatic" probably has waaaaaayyyyyyyyyy the fuck less drama than Christoph's "less dramatic." lol) noideahowtoparty AKA Christoph · SYMPHONY  In some ways, this makes it interesting to trace your voice as an artist over the years and the ways it shifts and morphs.  I totally forgot about this redo of Clean Bandit's "Symphony" I made 7 years ago. That's... 2018. I was a lot more shy about sharing my art back then. It's not bad, but it doesn't really have much of a distinctive voice to it. I'd started to have faith in myself and what I was good at, but it was still held up b...

There used to be more magic in the world.

  Before the plague.  Things felt different In a way that can't really can't be put into words. Like how live music never really made a comeback. (Sure, it tried, but the spark just wasn't there anymore. Like Community after Dan Harmon got kicked.)   I think the term I heard was "vibe shift," But that wasn't quite it. A vibe shift is when one generation wears baggy jeans because the one before them wore tight ones. This was more a downgrade, A social down-shift. A catastrophic, mass-scale burnout. We're all just depressed and irritable now, stuck in our own little worlds. And the economy isn't doing anyone any favors. We just go home and stare at a screen. There's little meaning to be had in much of anything for anyone anymore, it seems.       Nowadays We don't go out and dance. A lot of us are scared to go out in public because we don't feel it's safe to go out if we're a woman or LGBT+ or a minority... Even in general, people are...

Best of Soundcloud: Day After 4/20

  How's y'all weeks been? I'm housesitting for the homie. Feels like my life is kind of up in the air right now. Feels like everyone else's life and the state of the world is, too. It's kinda not great. Anways, here's some music to take your mind off shit. Matt Laws · Dead Spark Ooey gooey psytrance goodness from one half of Binary Finary. Makes you nod your head. Jasmone K. Smith · Korea R3DUp - K!NG JAZZZ #BodakYellow Reaction [Prod. Raw Sushi] Random freestyle I stumbled across. Hard AF, I feel like you gotta play it at like 3 in the morning to get the proper feel. Anja Schneider · Surrender Calming, chill vibes. It's been my "I have nothing to worry about, life is pretty good" song since I moved to Denver in 2019. God, I didn't realize how long ago that was. lol HannahLaing · 4am In A Rave feat. rhys from the sticks Catchy, fun, impossible not to sing along to- What more do ya need? Oddball Savage · The Orchard (f...

Best of YouTube: Tax Week Edition

    Welp, I have *not* been posting as consistently on this as I like, taxes r due if you live in the United States, Katy Perry fucked up what could have been a really big moment for gender equality, and the Trump Administration is fucking up every aspect of life for Americans. I need to get my passport. Or better yet, get abducted by aliens. This planet is a shitshow. Lol! Ethiopiques, vol. 1: Alemayehu Eshete  I was introduced to Ethiopiques from an interview with pop singer The Weeknd where he talked about how his first language was Amharic, not English, and his Ethiopian background. They're a series of jazz compilations that give a great musical overview of the country's cultural history, each one being part of a distinct overarching sound while sounding absolutely nothing like the others. I always put it on when I'm cooking or feeding guests, something about it just puts the right amount of liveliness and joy in the atmosphere for everyone to breathe in.   Shash...